Ghetto Toss 2007 Awards

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Fate has it..

That after missing (thanks Greg) Saturday night's Bright Eyes show...I got a call yesterday afternoon concerning a free ticket to last night's show (thanks Nicole).

Fate kept me away on Saturday for good reason so that I can go there last night and enjoy myself even more.

The show was amazing..amazing...amazing. We had awesome (did I mention free) seats and Jen-nay came out as a special guest.

Gotta love fate.

Me, Myself and I

I should be happy right now. In a few hours I'm on a vacation. But this vacation consists of packing up my things and moving out of my lovely home. I didn't think all of this would happen so quickly. I didn't think I would be so upset and distraught over it. I guess the fact that I have to stay somewhere temporarily in between another temporary event makes me feel...uneasy? But with big change comes new and exciting oppurtunities. Unfortunately, with big change comes the feeling of loss of security. Loss of grounding. I do so love feeling grounded.

I remember when I bought this house. I packed up all my things in the apartment mostly by myself. I dealt with the paperwork and formalities of buying a house, by myself. I went to the lawyers office, by myself. I got the keys and came to the new house right away and walked in here, by myself. I looked around and was in complete shock. "Wow, this is ours", I thought. I went back to the apartment by myself. And I packed up the truck completely by myself.

I remember thinking after this series of events, "Why am I by myself?".

And look where I am two and a half years later.

I've packed up my house mostly by myself. I have dealt with the paperwork and formalities of selling a house, by myself. I will relunctantly leave the keys and garage door openers and cones and paint and hard work and love for the new owners. I will walk out of this house by myself. I will be going to the lawyers office, by myself.

So I guess the lesson I'm still learning is you can only count on yourself. I can only count on me. I came into this house with the best intentions for everyone in my life at the time. I am now leaving this house with the best intentions for Me, Myself and I.

Bjork

was amazing

Maybe it's the cigarette I smoked...

Maybe because there was some nicotine in my body last night...I had some strange dreams.

The most vivid one was being in church sitting next to Christine. Christine wanted me to say something outloud. I refused. So then she decided to scream it outloud to the whole congregation and then continued to rant on about me being shy and reserved. I cried.

Christine, you made me cry bitch. But I still love you. :)

Day off

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Today I took the day off to start packing. I also mowed the lawn. And I also took a picture of some beautiful tulips I planted last year.

Did I mention I'm going to miss this house?